Dates To Note

4th Jan – FMS Project Submission

Ridiculous?

I still randomly pick out some of my time to read the reasons you gave me, and it never fails to build up that particular word in my mind – ridiculous. It really doesn’t sound right. The more I read it, the more I think you’re just giving excuses. I’d rather see you admit that you didn’t have the thought of spending time with me, instead of giving me excuses, or rather, lies which does not makes sense at all. Of course it’s just part of it, not all. I believe some of what you said is true? I would be able to take the fact that you don’t fancy spending time with me anymore, but I am unable to accept the fact that you actually spent time to give me all these and thought that it would resolve everything.

But whenever I finish reading them, I would always consider letting everything go and not hold any grudges about it anymore. It makes me feel damn selfish and narrow-minded. Why can’t I just get over it and press that ‘Re-start’ button? It makes me feel so shity. And yet the reason behind my incapability of doing so is that I really felt too attached to you, and you damaged whatever I have for you more than both of us could expect. It’s similar to loving and hating someone at the same time, but not to that extend.

I am afraid that if I do so, you might not be able to, so called learn from your mistake. Or maybe it’s not even your mistake. It’s just me being such a selfish bitch that wasn’t close to being your best friend at all. Considering the other side of it, what if this work out and everything gets better again? Must I let everyone suffer in all these nonsensical historic thoughts and feelings of mine? But the others probably wouldn’t give a fuck.

Oh well, me too. Let’s just fuck it.

Whatever it is, I can see that you are definitely enjoying yourself when spending time with them. This might be something good.

Yes, another post about you, again. It’s quite surprising that I’ve written so many posts about you, but not him.

No, I have not forgotten him. He just simply became a tiny bit that I seldom think about of the 3% – 5% part of my brain usage as I continue my not-so-screwed-but-quite-screwed-life. Hardy-ha-ha.

Oh yes. The previous post is nothing, just something triggered by my nonsense thoughts.

PEACE!

My shirt smells like Baby. Teehee.

Oh?

First was M, now it’s you.

I have to

Want to – Choosing between one or another

Have to – No choice

Boiler Room

I just finished downloading this movie after struggling much to stay awake.

And I just realise it has got no subs.

CB.

December

Okay lah, December haven’t finish BUT going to already! 2010 is coming, means 2 more years to live, LOL! I think the remaining December days won’t be happening because I’ll be staying at home watching Keith! Hehehe.

Sherlock Holmes

Is damn awesome! :)

Jeanie is now lying on my bed with Baby on her chest, and fantasizing eating his arm like drumstick.

(I previously type ‘chicken wing’ then she still correct me to put ‘drumstick’)

Update another time, Melvin wants to use my laptop!

HEHEHE

The present that Shafiq, Xue Qi, Daren, Berenice & J Fang got me! VERY SWEET OF YOU GUYS PLEASE! =) And Shafiq, XQ and Daren surprised me today. Lol! It was damn funny. You 3 made my day man! I feel so happy today. Hehe. It was really nice, and I really appreciate it that you guys actually spent those time planning and thinking about this. <3 For more details, please log on to Xue Qi’s blog. LOL!

18 for 18th

(Y) (N)?

Good

Half-good

No good

EPM

Refers to Extremely Problematic Module.

And I have  a lot to memorize.

On top of that, I’ve been very unlucky the whole day.

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